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Hey guys I'm sorry that I didn't post chapter 7. I didn't start writing it because I'm sick. I'll let you guys know when I'll be posting it on twitter ( @love_blogs ). I apologize again for not letting you know sooner.

A Miserable Life Chapter 6-A

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My big day is tomorrow and I'm not sure whether to be happy or nervous and worried, I drifted of to sleep after all that thinking I did. I hope everything turns out to be perfect tomorrow, wish me luck.

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I woke up at 9am and just layed on the bed thinking of tonight. We're gonna be together, in one room, sharing one bed. I just can't believe it. I got off bed and went to take a shower. After I was done, I entered my room and found hind sitting on my bed.

Me: "oh hala hanood! Mta yaity"

Hind: "mn shwy. Ok bdly bsr3a bn6l3"

Me: "ok wain bnseer"

Hind: "bs lbsy tracksuit w yalla msh lazim t3rfeen"

Me: "ok"

I got dressed and we headed down to hind's car. She first took me to Circle cafe to have breakfast, the food was delicious. After that she took me to One & Only resort spa and we both got full body massages and mani pedi's. We were done with all that at around 2 so we decided to go have lunch at La Petite Maison. After eating we headed back home to take my stuff so we could go to the hotel. We entered the suite we got in atlantis since I'm having my wedding there. I liked the fact that it'll be overlooking the sea and that's why I'm doing it there. I waited for the hair dresser and makeup artist to come. After I was done with all that it was around 9 so Hind helped me get into my dress. My aunt came in and said that it was time for me to go to the wedding hall. I was really  nervous, I never imagined it to be this scary before. I was now standing at the entrance, it was time to go in. I walked as slowly and gently as I can until I reached the kosha. I sat there and a lot of women came to greet me, some of them I know and some I've never seen before. After sitting there for an hour and a half, they announced that the groom was coming in. I got really nervous. There he was walking towards me with his father on his right and my father on his left and my brother walking behind them. His brother's can't come in because I wear a shaila. My dad came towards me first kissed my forehead and congratulated me, after that rashed came and did the same. As soon as his lips touched my forehead I felt a shiver run down my spine. His father congratulated us and then we all took some photos. His sisters came to take photos with us too. After we were done with family photos, we just sat there. A few minutes passed and we haven't talked to each other, but then he reached for my hand and held it tight.

Rashed: "elyoum awal mara ad8i8 feech w achoof kl hl jamal"

I just looked at him, smiled than looked down at my lap.

Rashed: "fdait ely tst7y ana"

I couldn't stop myself from blushing at that moment.

Me: "raashheedd baasssss"

He just laughed and kept looking at me. Everytime I look at him I find him staring at me. His mother came after a few minutes and rashed told her that we want to go out. 

Rashed: "umy 5ala9 t3bna nba nrw7"

5alo Salama: "rashood twik ma kmlt sa3a g3du shwy w b3dain b5leekm troo7oon"

Rashed: "ana aba aroo7 al7een yalla 5ala9 5loona nroo7"

5alo Salama: "9dg ina rasik yabis w 3need!"

We walked down the hall hand in hand and went to the same room I got ready in so we could take some photos. I just stood awkwardly there but off course that philipino lady won't leave me alone and tell me to hold him or kiss him. I was standing and holding his hand when suddenly rashed decided to sweep me off my feet amd carry me like a baby.

Me: "oh my godd!! Rashed nzlny"

Rashed: "maba kaify"

Me: "rasheeddddd!! B6ee7"

Rashed: "ma bt6ee7en ana maskich 3dl"

The photographer kept laughing at us. I was still in his arms but managed to calm down so we could just get over with it. I was just staring at him while he looked down into my eyes and then kissed my forehead. This time it wasn't how he kissed me out there infront of everyone, no he kept his lips lingering on my forehead for a longer time. I closed my eyes and enjoyed it. We where done taking photos and left the hotel room and headed to our suite.

Important!!!

Just to let you guys know, I won't be posting anything on friday's. I might post chapter 6 late at night, but I'm not sure. If it's not there by tonight then I'll post it tomorrow for sure.

A Miserable Life Chapter 5

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We went back to the gazebo hand in hand pretending to be the perfect couple and sat, after an hour I went back home and immediately went to sleep.

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Days passed and now I was a day away from my wedding. My cousins decided to throw me a bridal shower in a yacht. They prepared everything for me. 

This is the dress they got me to wear:

I went to the party and enjoyed every minute of it, when suddenly salama comes to me looking scared and confused. 

Salama: "yazooy"

Me: "salama shfeech? Fee shay 9ayer"

Salama: "madry walla! Fj2a rashed ya w shkla m39b wayed bs nfs el wgt t3ban w kan ga3id y9ari5! Gal ina yba yklimch"

Me: "umm ok where is he broo7la"

Salama: "he's inside but be careful he's really angry! I never saw him like this" she told me as I was walking away.

I went inside and saw him sitting on the sofa with his head down to his knees and his hands supporting it. I went and sat down beside him,I was worried.

Me: "rashed"

 As soon as I said his name he started crying. I never saw him in a state like this.In fact I never saw any man like this. 

Me: "rashed, look at me.....look at me rashed" I said for the second time as I lifted his head up to my level. I looked straight into his eyes and I could see all the pain he's going through.

Me: "whats wrong?" I said and he cried harder and collapsed to his knees again.

Me: "rashed, please tell me I'm worried" I told him as a tear managed to escape. I just couldn't see him like this. He looked exhausted, depressed, even broken. I made him sit back straight again and hugged him tightly as I ran my fingers through his hair and my other hand caressed his back. We both kept crying.

Me: "rashed please tell me whats wrong?"

Rashed: "I can't"

Me: "why can't you rashed. Why won't you tell me. Rashed please I'm really worried"

Rashed: "because.... Uffff she doesn't want me! Ok she doesn't! She doesn't want a married man alyaziah! She doesn't"

I didn't know what to say. I was speechless. Tears started rolling down my eyes I couldn't stop them. Everytime he brought her up I get hurt.

Me: "If she truly loves you then she would never let you go rashed. No matter what happens she has to be there with you."

Rashed: "alyaziah"

Me: "hmmm"

Rashed: "let's try this. Let's try us, why don't we give us a chance alyaziah? Can you?"

Me: "rashed" I couldn't believe what he said. Did he really just say that.

Rashed: "please alyaziah"

Me: "rashed I don't want to be a rebound"

Rashed: "you won't! Don't ever think of it like that. Alyaziah your my wife! We'll be spending our lives together starting tomorrow! I want us to be together! I don't want to pretend anymore!! Alyaziah what do you say? Will you give this a try?"

Me: "ok, I will" I said feeling defeated

Rashed then took me home. The car ride with him yet again was very awkward. We finally reached my father's house, rashed came down with me to greet my father. After he was done with all the greetings, he walked me up to my room.

Rashed: "everything's gonna be okay. Don't worry"

I nodded and he kissed my forehead and whispered "goodnight" I entered my room, got changed and layed on my bed thinking, tomorrow everything's gonna change. I'll be his and he'll be mine. My big day is tomorrow and I'm not sure whether to be happy or nervous and worried, I drifted of to sleep after all that thinking I did. I hope everything turns out to be perfect tomorrow, wish me luck.

A Miserable Life Chapter 3

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Suddenly I felt him pull me up into a hug.....

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I hugged him back and rested my head on his chest while crying harder. Rashed tryed to calm me down, he tucked a strand of hair behind my ear.

Rashed: "I'm sorry" he whispered and hugged me tighter.

After a few minutes I calmed down and we went to the car. All I wanted to do right now is reach home, take a shower and go to sleep. The ride back home was very awkward, all I did was stare at my hands which were placed on my lap. Rashed suddenly stopped the car and when I looked out the window I realized that he didn't take me back home. He got out of the car and made his way to my side of the car and opened the door.

Rashed: "let's go for a walk"

Me: "hmm? But I'm tired and I want to go home" I said in a very low voice 

Rashed: "Just for a little while, we need to talk"

Me: "ok"

I went down and we went to walk by the beach in JBR. At first he was quiet and he didn't say anything, but then he started talking.

Rashed: "ummm..Alyaziah"

Me: "hmm"

Rashed: "look I don't know how to really say this, but I'm just gonna go ahead with it. Alyaziah, we both are gonna get married to each other whether we like it or not"

Me: "I know"

Rashed: "but.. The problem here is I don't really know you to like you. Off course we'll have to get to know each other and everything, but even if we do I won't be able to love you" as soon as he said that I felt like I just got slapped in my face, I just wanted to know why. He stopped for a second and just kept looking at me trying to read my facial expressions but I didn't show him anything and just had a straight face trying to not let the tears come out. He completed what he was saying, "you see, there's someone in my life already, and I even told my mum about her since I wanted to propose to her but then my father suddenly calls and says I'm getting married to my cousin. I was mad and shocked at the same time since everything I had planned for my future with Sara was ruined" I couldn't look him in the eye thinking he might see the sadness in them and just stared down at the sand. "Alyaziah, I know that what I said was a bit harsh" a bit harsh!! A bit!!! You don't know how much you hurt me!! "But you had to know the truth. I agreed to this because it's what both our fathers want. We'll get married but still have our separate lives. I'm not breaking up with sara no matter what happens because I love her. You can do whatever you want and can also talk to your boyfriend even if we're married, I won't mind." Boyfriend?! Boyfriend!!! I don't have a god damn boyfriend!! I don't date because my morals won't allow me to!! Because I have my dignity!! What was he saying!! Does he really think of me that low!!

Me: "So, you mean we'll only be married by papers?"

Rashed: "Yes, exactly that! So what do you say? Do you agree"

Me: "well, I don't know"

Rashed: "Either way you'll have to because you don't have any other choice"

Me: "ok can you take me back home now"

Rashed: "sure, let's go" he said as we went back to the car and headed home.

As soon as I entered our house I ran upstairs to my bedroom and started crying. I couldn't handle it. My dad thought that I would be happy, but no he was wrong. I went to the bathroom and filled the bathtub. Tears were streaming down my face as I was laying in a tub full of water. I couldn't believe what happened. Now I was determined to set a new goal! My goal is to do whatever it takes to stop us from getting married. No matter what happens, I won't marry that lifeless guy. I'M NOT MARRYING HIM AND THAT'S FINAL!!!

A Miserable Life Chapter 2

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After a couple of minutes I saw this figure from far waving at our direction. 

Is it him? No it's not! It can't be.....

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There he stood hugging his brother first then his sister while he did his best on ignoring my presence. I don't want to be here!!! It felt really awkward. I followed them as they were headed towards the car. They were just talking about some stupid lame stuff when Rashed says he wants to go to my grandma who lived in z3beel.

Rashed: "ayy 5lna nseer 3nd umy 79a 3ashan aslm 3alaiha"

3li & Mariam: "yayy ok!! Mnzman n7na ma shfnha!!"

Me: "umm.. 3adi lw tnzloony el bait. Shwy t3bana"

Rashed: "enshallah tbaina inser lain palm jumeirah bs 3shanich! Ana el 9ara7a t3ban w aba arid el bait bsr3a!"

Me: "ummm...." I was in the verge if crying right then and there!!

Rashed: "dgy 3a draiwlkm 3ashan iyee w yshlch! N7n bnrw7"

I just stood there speechless not knowing what to do as I saw the car drive away. I was in the airport alone at 11pm!! I was scared!! As a tear ran down my cheek, I dialed the drivers number.

Me: "aloo majeed wain inta"

Majeed: "ana mafe da5il dubai"

Me: "ha?! Shu?!" I said as other drops of tears found their way out. "Majeed wain inta?"

Majeed: "ana fe abudhabi mn shan jeeb saman 7g baba mal inta"

Me: "oh ok yalla 5ala9"

I sat on a bench outside not knowing what to do and just letting those tears drop one after the other. I called my dad but he didn't answer, then I tried calling my brother who seemed he was sleep talking!  I didn't know what to do and I would never get into a taxi!! The only person I could call now was him. I kept staring at his number for a while. It has been an hour and a half already since they left. I finally had the courage to press the button and call him.

Rashed: "aloo???"

Me: "ummm aloo rashed, ana alyaziah"

And just like that the line went dead. I called for a few more times but he wouldn't pick up. Now it's been already 3 hours and no one came to get me. While I was sitting here abandoned and all alone, rashed got a phone call from my father.

Dad: "aloo el salam 3alaikm Rashed"

Rashed: "w3alaikm el salam 3ami"

Dad: "asif dgait bhl wgt bs b'3ait as2l 3n yazoya 7beebty. Ragda 3ndkm wla bait ydt'ha l2na magalatly"

Rashed: "ha? Umm... Haih he 3ndna!! Nayma 3ndna fe baitna!!"

Dad: "haih zain 3yal t6mnt. Yalla 3yl t9b7 3la 5air"

Rashed: "wenta mn ahla"

Rashed immediately went down to his car and made his way to the airport. He looked for her everywhere but couldn't find her. He gave up looking for her and was now headed to the car, when he saw a girl sitting on a bench with tears in her eyes. He quickly ran to her and started shouting.

Rashed: "shu inti?!!! '3abiya!!! Ma 3ndch 3gl?!!! Shu mg3dnch hnee lain al7een!!  Laish ma glty 7g el draiwel iyee yshlch?! Ha?! Laish!!!"

Me: "uuhhh rashed"

Rashed: "zain chee fashalteny 3nd ubooch!!"

Me: "rashed il draiwel fe bu'6aby w dgait 3a mayood i5ooy bs kan nayem w youm dgait 3laik bndt fe wayhi w ma rdait 3alai mara thanya" I said as I cried at the same time.

Suddenly I felt him pull me up into a hug.....

(Sorry I had to stop it here. Till next time my readers! I hope you enjoyed reading this chapter)

A Miserable Life Chapter 4

PREVIOUSLY:

I'M NOT MARRYING HIM AND THAT'S FINAL!!!

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I woke up the next morning feeling confident about what I was going to say to my father. I made my way to the dining where I found my father sitting at the head of the table, and mayed and shamsa on his right. I took a seat on the chair across from mayed's and started eating. When we finished, my dad and I went and sat in the living room, I knew that this was the time to tell him so I did.

Me: "baba aba agoolik shay"

Ahmed: "gooly 7beebty"

Me: "to tell you the truth, ana mart7t 7g rashed baba! Walla lw tchoof n'6rata 7gy baba tgool m'39oob 3alai"

Ahmed: "inzain 7beebty rashed ams rj3 mn el sfr w kan t3ban y3ny m3thoor"

Me: "la baba la! Ana maba! Agoolik mb mrta7a! Ana wafa8t ini atzwj bs msh rashed, baba i5tar ay7d thani ma 3ndy mani3 bs ila rashed"

Ahmed: "ya baba ma y9eer, 5ala9 n7na itf8na 3a kl shay w el mlcha 3gb youmain, w 3rskm b3d thalath asabee3"

Me: "baba gltlk maba, w it's too soon!!!!'"

Suddenly my father closed his eyes and placed his hands on his head. I asked him whats wrong but he claimed that it was just a normal headache. My father was dying infront of me and I couldn't do anything but grant him the only wish he had.

Me: "5ala9 baba, asfa walla asfa. Btzwj rashed w enshallah kl shay bykoon zain"

Ahmed: "allah ytm'm 3laikm 7beebty, yalla ana broo7 arta7 shwy w la tnsain ilyoum msween 3sha fe bait 3amich 7g rj3t rashed w lazim tyeen"

Me: "enshallah"

The dinner that was held by my uncle tonight was big which meant that I had to look good. I decided to wear:

And did my hair and makeup like this:

After I was done with getting ready, I went downstairs to my father since I was going with him. We arrived at my uncles house and I went to greet all my aunts and cousins. We "me and my cousins" decided to go and sit in the garden.

3asha(cousin): "ayy banat hathu rashed, 5alna nslm 3alai ana machfta elyoum"

Salama(cousin): "haih yalla ana b3d ma slmt. Imshu yalla bnslm w bng3d wyahm"

We went over to the gazebo and greeted everyone there. Mariam rashed's sister was already there seated right next to her brother. 

Mariam: "banat g3du! Mnzman ma g3dna klna wya b3'6"

Saif(cousin): "haih walla g3du bnsolif"

I sat there for around thirty minutes silently listening to their meaningless conversations until my best friend hind decided to call. I excused my self and went and sat on the swings while talking to her.

Hind: "aloo!! Yazoooyyyy!!!"

Me: "hala hanood! Sh7alich"

Hind: "everythings good' but I miss you! Yala 5ala9 come back to uni already"

Me: "I wish I can bs walla magdar. I'm really busy with my dad and on top of all that my wedding is after two weeks! Walla I want to cry bs ugh... I just can't explain"

Hind: "ohhh 7yati!! Don't worry enshallah everything's fine."

Me: "enshallah"

Hind: "okkk, tell me is hotttt?!!!"

Me: "what?!! No I'm not gonna talk about that"

Hind: "come on! Looks have nothing to do with the personality"

Me: "ugh ok! He's hot bs shwya"

Hind: "haha oh my god! Details please"

Me: "well! Dark brown hair, his eyes are big and brown with long lashes and I didn't pay attention to the rest"

Hind: "hmmm, yazooy?"

Me: "yeah?"

Hind: "what if you start liking him? Y3ni what would you do then?"

Me: "well I don't need to think about that because it's never gonna happen"

Hind: "ugh mnch"

Me: "babe?"

Hind: "hmmm"

Me: "I miss you"

Hind: "I miss you more"

Me: "uff I might not come back you know"

Hind: "what no!! Your coming back!! yazooy walla lazim trdeen!! You know that I love you right"

Me: "I know! I love you more walla! Enshallah I'll see you soon"

Hind: "enshallah"

Me: "ok yalla I have to go now, bye"

Hind: "bye"

And I hung up. I turned around wanting to head back to the gazebo when I suddenly find rashed standing right there.

Rashed: "mnu knty trmseen"

Me: "and what's it to you"

Rashed: "Alyaziah MNU?"

Me: "my friend"

Rashed: "la tchthbeen 3alai! I miss you w I love you and you say a friend"

Me: "rashed I'm telling you the truth I was talking to my friend hind!!! And didn't you say that I could talk to guys if I wanted to"

Rashed: "I never said that!!"

Me: "yes you did rashed don't deny it ok!! You said that your never breaking up with that girlfriend of yours sara and that I can talk to my boyfriend!!"

Rashed: "ALYAZIAH!!!"

Me: "what?"

Rashed: "forget about what I said that day! Your not allowed to talk to guys or have boyfriends!!"

Me: "that's unfair!!!!! If I'm not allowed to talk to guys then you'll have to break up with sara!!!!!"

Hey grabbed me tightly by my arms and hissed.

Rashed: "it's not up to you!! Call him now infront of me and break up with him"

Me: "seriously?! How am I supposed to do that, I can't!!"

Rashed: "excuse me?!! You can't!!!! Give me your phone"

Me: "what! No your not taking it!! You won't find anything in it anyways"

Rashed: "oh really and why is that?!!!"

Me: "simply because I never had a boyfriend!!! How could you think of me that low rashed!!! My dad did not raise me like that!!"

Rashed: "give me your phone" he said coldly.

Me: "NO!"

Rashed: "I said give it to me alyaziah!!"

And he squeezed my arms tighter. 

Me: "rashed take your hands away! Your hurting me!" I said when a tear fell down. He then loosened his grip.

Rashed: "give me your phone NOW or I swear I'll walk up to your father right now and tell him to take your phone"

Me: "fine! Go ahead tell him and look who's gonna be embarassed!! Seems like you don't know about my father's realationship with me!! He trusts me unlike you okay!!! When I said I never talked to guys I meant every single word rashed!!! I don't!!!!" I said while crying

Rashed: "then why aren't you giving me your phone to check"

Me: "because no one ever did that okay! I'm not used to this and my dad and brother are trustworthy of me! They never asked for my phone to check!!"

Rashed: "ugh I never knew you were stubborn!! Fine I'm letting you go this time"

We went back to the gazebo hand in hand pretending to be the perfect couple and sat, after an hour I went back home and immediately went to sleep.

(Sorry that I posted it late today but I was really busy! I typed this as fast as I can to post it for you guys today)

A Miserable Life Chapter 1

Hey guys! I'll be sharing with you my story and what happened to me that made my life miserable. So let me introduce you to myself. My name is Alyaziah, I'm 19 years old and in my third year of studying at the university of sharjah. I'm from Dubai, all my family lives there but because I wanted to study abroad and to my dad it was impossible, he allowed me to go study in sharjah. My mother passed away when I was 4, I don't really remember her but everyone says I look like her and act like her too. My goal is to finish studying and be the first doctor in the family. I want to make my dad proud of me since I was his only daughter. I have one older brother named mayed, he's 25 years old and recently got married to Shamsa my cousin. I was really happy and satisfied with the life I was living until I heard that my father had cancer. At that moment all I could think of was him, I couldn't focus on my studies or anything else. I was failing in everything, so I decided to not attend university for a few months until my father hopefully gets better. I went back home and spent every minute I had with my father knowing that he's in the last stages of cancer and he'll be leaving us soon. I used to cry myself silently to sleep every night thinking of what my father goes through everyday and all the pain he tries to hide away. 

After a few days, the dreadful news were given to me. I wish this didn't have to happen but I knew that my father wanted what was best for me. My dad called me in to his room and started saying stuff I didn't really understand in the beginning. 

Ahmed(Alyaziah's father): "yazoya 7beebty ta3aly g3dy mne" pointing at  a spot on the bed

Me: "enshallah" I said as I seated myself

Ahmed: "sh7alich 7beebty? Enshallah b5air"

Me: "el7mdellah"

Ahmed: "zain, 7beebty fe mw'9oo3 aba aklmch fe"

Me: "ok gool baba la t5wfny"

Ahmed: "yazoya inti t3rfeen ina ma bgaly shay 97"

Me: "baba la tgool che! Kl shay  b'eed allah" I said as a tear managed to escape from my eye

Ahmed: "7abeebty la t9ee7een. Ana aba agoolich ina 7beebty inti kbrty w ana ma aba aseer w a5aleech broo7ich '6ay3a fl dinya fa b'3ait agoolich ina ummm.... aaa..."

Me: "baba shu?!!"

Ahmed: "ummm ina ana w 3mich Fahad itf8na ina inti w Rashed wlda t'tzwjon"

Me: "shu?! Ana w mnu!!!!  Baba allah y5leek atrjak la2!! Ana ma3arfa w ma achoofa illa ymkn mara fl sna!!! Maba!!! Baba pleaseee!!!!"

Ahmed: "7ta lw matchofena w mat3rfena 7beebty lazim. M3 il ayam bt3rfena w  btt3wdain 3alai"

Me: "babaaa mabaaa la222!! Allah y5leek!! Atrjakkk" I said while crying

Ahmed: "ana swait kl ha 7g m9l7tch w hu  by5l9 jam3a in two weeks w byrd mn amreeka."

*After two weeks*

My dad forced me to go and meet my cousin Rashed now know as my FIANĆE at the airport. I stood there with his brother 3li and his sister Mariam waiting for him. I didn't know what he looked like since I haven't seen him in so long. After a couple of minutes I saw this figure from far waving at our direction. 

Is it him? No it's not! It can't be.....

Stay tuned my readers for the next chapter will be posted tomorrow...